Well well......

Well.... I am perfectly fine and here only. Just little busy!!

Sorry for not writing from long but I intended to make come back with some great post. But this is just to reply what I had been up to all this time.
After the Diwali, for almost entire November, I was abroad. First to Japan followed by second time Singapore Trip.
Yeyy.... :D
Trips were great and lots of things to share but they were damn hectic!! So could not write..... :(
Miss blogging and miss lovely posts ppl! Wil catch up soon :)

budday!

Yesterday was my birthday! I turned 25 (I know that sounds bad, I don't wanna grow up).
The birthday was good with celebration extending to three day with family and friends :)
It feels great to get so many from all across the world. Some of them were expected but got many unexpected calls too.
Amongst the various gifts I got on this birthday, my little sis took away the show all alone with her absolutely awesome birthday gift! Apart from flowers, gifts etc. she has made a birthday book for me. It was such a big surprise. The book contains some of old childhood pics and some very special pics with about hundred birthday messages from all family members, my cousins, and friends! She even didn’t miss my best friend’s message (hand written and scanned) from US in the book. I was so overwhelmed!! This is the best gift, I ever had.
A got a cute cute gift coming all the b’lore. Thanks and hugs dear.
Over all. the birthday celebration was good.
But life seems to be so directional less and unpredicted now a days.
These days, I find words inadequate to express whats on my mind and which is the real cause of low activity that my blog. I have been thinking of many things, all I have is scattered, conclusionless thoughts
I m totally stuck in this cobweb of life!

I know

I know who I am. No one else knows who I am. If I was a giraffe, and someone said I was a snake, I'd think, no, actually I'm a giraffe ~Richard Gere

Circumstances and downfall always make us forget what we are and what we are capable of doing.
So all what we need to do is to reassure ourselves of what we are.

Oh my God!

This day is undoubtedly one of those great days which will not vanish from my memory.
One of my paper which was send for publication has come back, after being reviewed by 5 reviewers!!
Tragic, is it not? I am so damn frust! Well, which is quite obvious being a doctorate student.
While tracking the journey of paper reviewer#1 find it to be well organised, adequate information, satisfactory figures and justified conclusions.
One the other hand, reviewer#2 find it to be preliminary work and well organised script. Fairly contradictory!
The paper was then send to reviewer#3 who find it new finding which are valuable for optical science and ready for publication.
Could not get the comments from the reviewer#4 which might be because of delayed response. And hence the paper was sent to one more reviewer.
The fifth reviewer, who ruined it all in this 50:50 game for me declined the manuscript. His comments were so weird that I could make out he didn't even understand the gist of the paper!
Recently while trying to simulate an expression, I have figured out mistakes even in the published papers. The papers which are in big Journals.
Some people are too lucky, to even get the paper with the wrong main equation to be published!!
Seems I am running out of luck!! :(
Poor me!

Interestingly......

Remember the old saying,
"Excess of everything is bad"
But over the time I have realised so does lack of everything!
Most the time the reasoning of not blogging is being busy or what we call "Excess of work load" but these days the reason of not blogging is "Lack of work". This lack of work has actually made me too lazy actually to even log into my blogger account!
Apart from that, nothing much happening in life. Life has become too monotonous and boring. And seems everbody around has got stuck into something or another! Well this is just part of the game.
Meanwhile I have shifted to new hostel with no internet connection to make life more miserable. In this cyber age, no net connection at hostel room!! And trust me people moving room/home is such a tough job!! Packing and then unpacking stuff...
Anyways, Happy Teacher's Day. Do call up or wish the Teacher's who have made us what we are today and brighten up their day. You will get many blessings and inspiration in return, as I got. :)

A wise advice

I wished the sender could have send me this pic three years back!
I might have reconsidered my decision.
But actually sometimes, I do feel that this degree has actually degraded my knowledge.
One advise for free, think atleast million times about going for a Ph.D degree.
It seems like a slow poison to me.

Something, somewhere....

A smile on my face,
A tight embrace,
A shoulder to lean on,
A mind so calm,
A hand to hold,
A peaceful soul,
A long walk,
A soothing talk,
A dream in my eye,
Or a reason to feel high,
A tender touch,
I don't know much!
Something, somewhere seems to be missing ........
Sometimes it just happens.

Solitude

Why some people come to our life to make it worse?
Why they make us feel this life is like living a curse?
I was not happy before you came but not this sad even,
I was not good but not this bad even.
There is a strange feeling of emptiness,
And I don't know when will it turn into completeness.

Universal law of life...

For some reasons this appears to be universal law of Life.
Really I have probably screwed up just about everything in life. :(

Friends and distances........

If ever u wanna realize the significance of the word FRIENDS, just think what is LIFE minus FRIENDS?

Are you really left with something worth living for? I guess Not!

Friends are an integral part of our life and we depend so much on them. We like talking to them and sharing things with them. We can share all the happenings in life with them. From school to college, college to IIT, I made so many friends. Friends I can count upon. With time I have moved ahead in life, to new places and I made new friends. At the same time, I have moved away from some friends. But they all have an irreplaceable position in my life. Sometimes the distances are merely physical distance but sometimes they are more than that.

At the times, I feel really awful about the fact friends who had once been so much part of my life, who know each silly little thing happened to me don’t even know today what I am up to now a days and vice versa. But what is important is that irrespective of the circumstances that separated me from them, I care for them and treasure them in my memories.
Fortunately, physical distance are usually not a hurdle, they can be overcome. Sometimes I feel really thankful to social networking sites like orkut, facebook etc. which has truly helped to get back even to old school friends and many more. But the more tragic part of the story, are the people who drifted because of some hard feelings or differences.

This thought came today because of someone who had been so much part of my life once upon a time. We had our share of good time together. The relationship we shared once had so much of trust, care and affection. And we were like inseparables. But circumstances changed and so does the things between two of us. The void we probably created in each others life, we both tried to fill up by other friends.

It’s been quite a long now. Fortunately, the busy schedule and work pressure keeps me busy. I have tried to overlook that corner of my heart which still holds those memories. I have tried to tear those pages from the book of life, denying the fact if they ever existed even. And I thought it’s over now, I don't care about all that any more. This firm believe actually shattered when on a phone call from a common friend. Mere mention of her brings back everything in just about few seconds. And now, I am wondering why the hell I am so damn upset? Can’t even understand how to react?

I am finding all this so weird. Probably it’s not all that is gone yet and the traces are still there.

Losing friends hurts badly.Yes it does!

But it is well said,

Never refuse any advance of friendship, for if nine out of ten bring you nothing, one alone may repay you.

And I still love to make new friends :)